Neurotic Holding Patterns / Primal Trauma

Elliott Hulse calls them Neurotic Holding Patterns.

“I believe all human being harbor primal trauma. The moment of birth is the first initiation – the agony of separation.The first time in which we experience fragmentation from being in a kind of cosmic merger with a divine being – a goddess – our mother – to all of a sudden trembling naked before the cosmos and I think that primal trauma – that initial separation leaves us all with a intermittent PTSD. I think we carry the scars from birth [I would add from and from infancy, childhood and adolescence] and that these fears and traumas resurface at pivotal periods of our lives. I think a lot of the patterns in our romantic life in particular reflect this primal trauma and fear of abandonment. What’s really interesting is that we spend our lives perpetually reenacting these traumatic experiences without ever realizing where they stem from in order to address them and potentially heal them. It’s why we make such a failure of our romantic undertakings and why most people lead lives of quiet desperation – I think the fear of loneliness. I think the cosmic fear of abandonment is polluting our romantic lives in ways that we don’t often address. So the question becomes is there a solution? Is there a kind of journey of transformation – our own version of the ‘Eat, Pray, Love’ undertaking where we learn to become whole on our own so that meeting somebody else becomes an additive, a supplement, rather than a filling of a vacuum.”


What if you’re taking actions to this day, based on emotional wounds you received as a child?

Let me give a few examples.

Have you ever been in a fight with your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband or wife, and gotten into a HUGE fight. The type of fight where you’re pissed off and angry for the rest of the day. It sucks, right? Well, here’s the thing.

What if only 10% of your anger has anything to do with the fight. What if the other 90% of your anger is repressed emotion coming to the surface?

In other words, when you get deeply triggered and strong negative emotions are flowing through your body, 90% of that emotion is just repressed emotion from our past coming up. 90% of your upset has NOTHING to do with whatever you think you’re upset about. So if you’re fighting or getting triggered a lot in your relationship, maybe you don’t need counseling. Maybe you need to heal those emotional wounds and get that repressed emotion out of your body!

Here’s another example to explain this deeper. When we’re children, we’re told in subtle ways that our emotions are “wrong”. When we’re toddlers and we get angry and throw a temper tantrum, our parents scold us and tell us to be quiet… So we repress all of that anger. When we’re of school age and we begin to cry we’re told to stop. Especially for men. Our father’s tell us stories like “crying is for little girls”… And so we repress our tears and sadness. When we’re happy, excited, and laughing our asses off as kids, we get told not to be so loud. To act respectable and stop laughing so loud in public. We get told to calm down… and so we repress our laughter and happiness.

In each of these situations we repress our emotions. We use our muscular system to do this. We hold back our tears by clenching our jaw, biting our lips and tightening the muscles in our neck. We hold back our anger by squeezing our hands, arms and chest. We hold back our sadness by tightening our bellies, chest and neck. As we use our muscular system to hold back our emotions – to keep them trapped inside – we develop what is called “muscular armoring”.

Muscular armoring is the physical manifestation of repressed emotion. And it’s built up in our bodies since we were young.

We cannot keep this emotion trapped in our bodies. If we do, we’ll be depressed. We’ll be unhappy. We’ll be frustrated.

We can never be the strongest version of ourselves until we let go of these negative emotions.

In biblical times, they’d talk about how you need to get the demons out of you. This is no different. Your repressed negative emotions are your demons. It’s time for this cycle to end.

Elliott Hulse


In Utero Trauma

What was happening while the child was being held in the womb as the mother was experiencing particular traumas and the baby

Bruce Lipton explains this through epigenetics (changes in organisms caused by modification of gene expression rather than alteration of the genetic code itself).

 

 


www.ConfusedAboutLove.com – There has been 20 years of study in Attachment Theory, showing how our early attachment style is formed from our bonding style with our parents, and we show how that style echoes in all of our subsequent adult relationships – and how to change those old patterns. Also research Dr. Gabor Mate’, a Canadian physician who speaks about early childhood trauma and how that stress causes all kinds of physical and psychological diseases. www,drgabormate.com. The Kaiser/CDC study of Adverse Childhood Experiences is available at www.ACEStudy.org.


Automatic negative thoughts

“ANTs don’t just pop up out of nowhere from one occurrence. They’re delivered to you from your subconscious mind. The subconscious contains the thoughts, memories and ideas that have been repeated so often, or are so emotionally charged (or both) that they stick with you until or unless they’re removed. These can be either positive (your parents telling you you’re the Greatest Child Ever, for example) or negative (an abusive parent who you never felt good enough for). Once these ideas and thoughts are let into the subconscious, they leak out into your life in ways you may not even notice. Trust issues, insecurity, high sensitivity, and lack of self-worth are just a few ANT symptoms. The real challenge with ANTs, or anything else in the subconscious mind, is that most people never become aware that it even exists. Undoing this mental conditioning will not happen overnight.”